wingedfreak | days in the circus

days in the circus

Gotham City is in standing water. It laps up in basements and first floors, gnawing steadily at the foundations of the city. He acknowledges how lucky he is that the Wayne Tower was built industrial, as he's reminded every day that he comes back to the cave and peels out of the wet suit after long hours of pulling people out of rotted buildings. Still, the stone floors still boast up to four inches of water when it rains. He's lost a databank that will need to be rebuilt from the ground up. The set up has been moved upstairs, where light mold is already nipping into the plaster. It will have to go somewhere else soon, so that the scheduled maintenance crew doesn't trip over it.

He can't think of where it will go yet. He's tired. His self-preservational instincts were long gone weeks ago, and now that Alfred is home (easily winded and heavily medicated, yes, but home), Bruce finds he can't be bothered to decide what needs doing for his own good. At least, not till Dory wakes him up fussily, yanking curtains open and chittering about the mess in the master suite. He strains to puzzle out what she's talking about (it's dusty, just dust it, who cares?) until she mutters something about Satanica and he realizes what mess she means.

Riddler's mess. Renewal's mess. He feels more tired for realizing.

His parents' room had been untouched for years. The memory of it feels like a dream, as does most of the long week that led Bruce to vandalizing it with his research. All the fanatical zeal that had come with him into the room then is gone, though, and he can't help feeling silly when he goes in just before sun down and sees just what Dory complained of. It looks like a klatch of cooler-tipsy teenagers has been here. Bruce leaves only a few seconds after he enters, opting to prepare first with coffee with Alfred in the kitchen, a few pointers on how to scrub spray paint off of the wood floors, and the appropriate cleaning supplies.

The crew isn't supposed to come yet, Bruce notes to himself as he applies a paste along the paint marks. It must be later than he thought, and the crew is coming tomorrow. Maybe he's lost track of the days. Maybe he's more of a mess than he thought just yesterday. Two days ago? Earlier today? Bruce fumes over collecting his documents and sorting them on his parents bed--but the annoyance sharpens to alertness when he hears an unfamiliar footfall echo up the hall. Heavy, quick, steady--young and probably male. Not the snappy sound of his quiet staff or Dory's shuffle, not Alfred's cane-assisted lumber. It can't be tomorrow already...

A glance out the window tells him that he's right: it's only mid-evening, well past the time anyone should be stopping by for work. Drifting into the door frame, Bruce bends his head down the dark hall to listen. The steps meet Dory's a floor lower, a corridor down. He can't pick out the words, but the voice is distinct and strange to this house. At this time of night, after all of this mess, the idea of strangeness in his house is unacceptable. Bruce doesn't bother with the lights as he slips (silent, shoeless under his sweatpants) into the hall. He wants eyes on the interloper before they get eyes on him.

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Roads, infrastructure, homes, the feet of every building and body he doesn’t want to imagine are buried in the fallout of Gotham's latest crisis. He had followed it closely as it unfolded, sinking every free hour he had into the clues and riddles broadcasted across the country. He stared in from the outside for days, gripped by Gotham’s latest maniac and hero until a call brought him right into the middle of it.

Alfred tried to send him right back, but he insisted, despite his reservations. For one, he can’t tell if it’s the gothic stone, the water filling nooks and crannies, or the ghosts occupying every loose limb of a thought that has him so cold. Maybe it’s just the weather, Dory (that’s new) had helpfully offered. Two, he feels horrible about missing his midterms. School understands family emergency well, but he’s struggling on paper to begin with and he leaves his heart with the community. Alfred needs him. Three, in a list of more to come, Bruce Wayne, to whom he hasn’t spoken for a decade (had no plans to change that), lives in the same place Alfred does. Which is the same place he has to stay. Again, Alfred needs him. Not Bruce. Bruce remains a mystery.

It all keeps him on his toes as he follows Dory around with a duffel bag. Nothing’s changed. There’s not a hair out of place besides the mess of equipment strewn about the main floor. Everything else is just as he remembers it. There’s the chandelier he once swung from (flying Graysons fly), and the sweeping handrail he slid down, winding along the grand staircases. He recalls it all in perfect precision while acclimatizing to this unsettled discomfort.

He even sets his duffle bag where he used to—right in the corner of the room, atop the perfectly conditioned leather of the armchair. He leaves it all then meets Dory, but the chill takes him right back up to his room. The heavy drapes outline the large windows that are dwarfed in the big, dark space. The mid-evening light sifts through the sheers. He brushes one panel back to stare out to the grounds, then tugs on a hoodie and sighs. There’s the bed he couldn’t quite sleep in. And there, down the hall, the master suite that he’s never been in.

Where is Bruce? Is no one going to mention him?

He heads down the stairs to meet Dory again.

Here—clean sheets. She didn’t have time to change them before he arrived. No, no, that’s fine, he can change the sheets himself. He knows how to change sheets, knows she’s busy. He follows still, with the stack of linens in his arm. Dinner will be ready soon, but in the meantime, since Alfred's down in the dining room, she’ll show him some things at Alfred's bedside.

"How is Alfred, by the way? How’s the recovery going?" He wants to know. How is he doing really? Be honest. In this soaring, secluded manor that's too big for its handful of occupants, they ought to keep things straight with each other, don't they? He thinks there's too much to do for secrets and miscommunication, and even more to do now with Gotham in pieces. And what to make of all that tech? And where's Bruce? What is he to make of all these damn shadows?

"Well, you know Mr. Pennyworth," Dory assumes easily, smiles less easily. From out of sight, Bruce doesn't recognize the tone she takes. She sounds drugged, looser than usual as she pats the sheets in Dick's hands. (Later, when he's off alert, he'll realize that it's a cocktail of excitement and relief to have a pleasant, handsome young man around to talk to after a long few weeks with two considerably less pleasant men.) "I think being still bothers him almost as much as the injuries. Especially when Mr. Wayne is...well. In and out. After everything."

The cumbersome hint is Bruce's queue to make his appearance. Dusty, bleach-stained hoodie and sweats, barefoot and three-days-past shaving or showering, he looks more like an extension of the creaky manor than its owner. His voice even creaks to match: "The hospital needed room for beds. They rushed him out, but he's good on the cane. Pain meds seem to be helping."

Despite the glance at her, Bruce doesn't seem to notice Dory's demeanor shifting (tighter, more fidgety) when he drifts closer. His attention is fixed on the oddity in the hallway. "...Dick?"

He parts his mouth to reply but the motion turns to a sharp inhale when he whips around to look at the new voice. Dory isn't the only one who tightens up and Bruce isn't the only one who stares. There's that damn tendency to absorb everything around him, and there's that beat of silence as he stumbles on his words, struggling to switch into a gear he hadn't finished prepping.

Bruce floats like a ghost and he blinks, easing away the jolt despite the lingering surprise. Honestly? He doesn't know how he feels about Bruce recognizing him. A decade ago, he was a child, not yet looking quite like he does now. But Bruce looks the same, filled out, worn out and battered, but he's exactly how Dick remembers him, just turned up and settled in. He looks like this is how he's supposed to be, even if he looks like he needs a haircut. A shower, a shave... the list goes on.

"Yeah." Dumb, inelegant--yeah, it's me. "I uh--" He only glances at Dory for a lifeline because his curiosity isn't done staring at Bruce. There he is. Dick tries to recover with a shake of his head and a huff of a laugh. It's not like he wasn't expecting Bruce. "You have to stop sneaking up on people like that."

"I wasn't sneaking up on you." He notes loosely, eyeing Dick head to toe. Without context, he might not have picked him out of a crowd. But the room he set his things down in, the spots he eyeballed as they moved down the hall, the way Dory talked about Alfred to him... "Alfred said he told you to stay in San Francisco. The city is dangerous right now."

Dory waves one hand limply at Bruce. "The city is always dangerous. Family takes the risk, and anyway, we need an extra hand around here till Mr. Pennyworth is on his feet. With you so--busy." There's an awkward pause before she stage whispers, "I did tell you he'd be coming. Maybe let's make a-a calendar. Are you any good with organization, Mr. Grayson?"

"You don't need to call me that." He's not an unaware, boarding school jerk. "If that's what Bruce needs, sure." He folds his hands into the pockets of the zipped up hoodie, turning to face Bruce fully and keeping Dory half behind him. Does Bruce mean to make her so nervous?

"Look, you're gonna have to put up with me, alright?" Frank, with no room for ifs and buts. "I can help, and I can't have Alfred suffering alone. That's not what he's here for." Here, in Gotham, married to his post in the Wayne family, to this dark house and man.

He shields Dory. Bruce doesn't quite see her until Dick blocks his view. What is he protecting her from? Is she really that nervous? He's still working through the why when Dick layers on more: Alfred is suffering, Alfred is alone, Dick is here and Bruce has to put up with him, Bruce apparently needs him here. Brow scrunched tight, eyes narrow with peering at Dick, he starts to recognize what remains of the bold, sure-footed boy that spent a season in Bruce's house and on Bruce's nerves.

He thinks to contest the sideways accusations, but a look to Dory again (longer this time, assessing) tells him she won't react well to bickering. Instead, he shrugs his shoulders and shakes his head slackly, a perfect recreation of a concession that Dick saw any number of times all those years ago: "Fine." No one asked, but he steps in and takes the linens out of Dick's arms. "C'mon. I'll help you out. Dinner's almost ready, right, Dory?"

"Last I checked." She agrees warily, but there's no subtlety to Bruce's meaning. Her hand nexts neatly in Dick's elbow. Pat pat. "I'll make sure the table is set. Don't be too long, or it'll go cold. Again."

Bruce "smiles" for the next moment until she's a solid twenty feet down the hall--then he's back to peering and puzzling at Dick. "You're coming on really strong for a guest."

The pats help, partly tamping down the irritation that’s bubbling to the surface. Dick watches Dory’s retreating figure, gaze sliding over to Bruce’s expression to catch the moment that smile drops.

He doesn’t really know why the shrug had been so irritating, or why the way Bruce concedes grates on his patience. The memories surfacing aren’t good ones, but that was then, and this is now. Now, Bruce grasps his linens and calls him out.

So he sighs, shoulders dropping. If all he’s heard is true, then he won’t see much of Bruce anyway. This doesn’t have to be so painful. Brows lift in emphasis.

“So we call it even, then? You’re an unwelcoming host.”

Whatever umbrage he takes to the complaint, the frankness is...refreshing. Bruce hrrms as he moves past, turning the conflict around in his mouth. "Things have been chaotic here. I mean, you've seen..." The news. The city. The house. Not Alfred yet, but he's heard about the hip and the knees and the burns and the pain. "... everything. How long are you staying?"

Bruce steps around him with the bundle of sheets, and his words sizzles out the annoyance. He gets it. They’re all on edge, short on time and temper and Bruce hadn’t been expecting him. He shoves his hands in the pockets of the hoodie with a sigh.

“However long I need to,” he answers, despite bringing only bringing enough for a week. Following Bruce, his strides quicken before he falls into step. Less defensively, he elaborates, glancing at Bruce. “I don’t know yet. How long are you gonna be tied up for?”

He doesn't like that question. He doesn't have an answer, and he definitely doesn't have an answer that doesn't make him sound like a man actively neglecting his loved ones. One. Bruce scowls and steps around it. "However long you need to. Aren't you still in school?"

“Yeah,” sighed out to the side, though it does nothing for the weight settling on his chest. He’s thankful for the staircase they start to ascend and the beat it affords him as they go back to the top floor of the manor.

“I told them I had some Family stuff. They understand. I’ll defer a semester if I have to.” He’s thinking the thought out loud for the first time, but surprisingly, it doesn’t sit as horribly as he thought it might. He’s never quite belonged to any one place. Not San Francisco, where he goes to school, not Detroit, where he lived with Clay, and certainly not Gotham. He belongs to the circus and whatever pieces of it is left, like his relationship with Alfred.

They reach the top of the stairs and start down the generous corridor, lined with elaborate mahogany panels and paintings, lit only by the window at the end of it. Dick’s gaze drifts along before settling back on Bruce, who hasn’t answered his question. Who’s trying to get him to leave quick and is hammering in the point.

He pauses at the doorway to the room he’s staying in. Calling it his room still doesn’t feel right, but this is where he’ll have to be for an unforeseeable amount of time. He turns to Bruce, levelling a steady look.

“Bruce, I know we didn’t exactly part on good terms last time. Could we—start over?”

Defer a semester. Physically, Bruce doesn't give away that the suggestion rushes to his head. How is he supposed to navigate around another person in this house? Nevermind someone like Dick, who was never reserved to begin with, and who's returned with a discomforting sense of surety about him. When he turns to Bruce, Dick meets his eyes easily, sturdy and bolder than Bruce remembers him. Under the point blank question, he's taken aback.

Start over. This time with him carrying his ghosts on his shoulders, and Dick standing upright.

His jaw works, eyes hold Dick's from below his brow. Bruce straightens his shoulders gradually. "...Of course." He has to think of Alfred. Of their hands pinched together in the hospital room, noting how all the strength Alfred could muster wasn't half of what Bruce had felt from him before. He nods. "I'm not going to turn away family."

He expects the gathering up of begrudging acceptance tracing along Bruce's jaw and spine, knowing he's forcing himself here against Alfred’s wishes, against Bruce’s wishes. Possibly against everyone’s wishes besides Dory and the hospital.

However, he doesn’t expect the words that follow, and the surprise shows on his own face in lifted brows and a stare, focused on Bruce’s exhausted, sunken gaze. It’s a flaw he’s working on: that tendency to wear his heart on his sleeve. His expression softens to a smile.

“Thanks.” A beat and he reaches for the sheets Bruce holds. “I’m serious, Bruce. I’ve gotten more useful. I can handle things now.”

He can't pin down at first why Dick's reaction bothers him but it comes when Dick turns his back: it's probably been a few weeks since he saw anyone smile. The look puts claws in his chest like a clingy cat. He isn't sure what to do with the feeling, like he's peeking on something he's not supposed to see. He crosses the room, to the other side of the bed, to occupy himself. "Seems that way. Bedsheets are still a bitch, though. Here." Toss him a corner.

"Your classes, are they...college or academy? I remember Alfred saying you were thinking about the force."

Dick places the pillows aside and stacks them on the night stand, followed by their covers, the top sheet, the duvet covers, the quilt... the whole elaborate set up of something that shouldn't be a bitch, precariously balanced. Like a few other things in this manor. He flings a corner of the fitted sheet over.

"Academy. Figured I'd join a different circus since the last one didn't work out." His smile's wry, still sad over Haly's collapse not long after his parents' death. He stretches the sheet down. "I did some training in Detroit but a few things sorta--" Lifting the mattress, tucking it under. "Took me to San Francisco. I've got a couple months left, then field training." His mouth tugs down. "Do you work with force here at all? With what just happened?" He wonders about all that influence attached to the Wayne name.

Tucking in tandem, he frowns--less out of disapproval than out of habit. "Not if we can help it. Rescue efforts are one things, but--" A sharp breath in through his nose as he yanks at the tricky final corner. "--I'd rather avoid endorsing the way our department operates as a whole. Maybe they're better in San Francisco."

He leaves off the fact that he very much doubts that as he reaches for the top sheet to straighten it out. Initially, he tugs a bit too much to his own side. "When you say a few things...?"

It’s hard to stop the hard grimace that pulls across his features when Bruce touches on the GCPD’s shortcomings.

The crisp white slips out of his fingers and he plants a hand on the mattress to grab it. They find a precarious balance again to lay down the sheet. Dick unfolds the duvet cover and tosses Bruce a corner.

"This girl got brought in for questioning. They wrongly accused her for her own mother’s murder and I had to help her.” Hard to keep the heated frustration out of his voice. “She knew about what happened to me. She was so much like me. Like us." He lifts his eyes, looks at Bruce, hands pausing where he's stuffing the corner of the duvet. It feels strange telling Bruce, but they're family—the closest thing to family he has. Now, he has Rachel too, who leaked hurt, who he couldn't watch get lost in the system, who hung on to him like a lifeline.

"So I went where she needed to go.” It’s a long story short. “It’s really not much better there. But you—couldn’t you do something about it here?” And if Bruce did? A shaky exhale, vulnerability shadowing his eyes.

"You know they never got to the bottom of what happened to my parents?"

It takes monumental effort to not question the concept of this girl. That she's like him. Like them, whatever that means. Bruce nearly pulls a muscle not chasing after the fact that she knew what happened. She could have been a circus fan. Or a stalker. Or a predator. But his headway on getting along is only minutes old; he isn't about to sacrifice it. Yet.

Instead, he starts to mull actively over what Dick helping her might have looked like, prepares to ask about what that work entailed--and Dick turns the light back on him. Bruce's mouth tugs to the side, brows furrow as he stuffs a pillow into a case. "...I remember. I doubt they even had a dedicated investigator." It's meant to be a dig at the department, but it sounds even to Bruce like your parents didn't matter. He tries to pivot away. "It's not a problem that can be fixed with money."

There's a lot that's happened between the last time Bruce saw him and now, and despite his belief that Bruce isn't interested in what, Bruce is asking questions. Possibly a newly-founded sense of courtesy?

Or--that's a long shot, as his gracious host's words burn him and Dick's eyes lift with a barely veiled glower. His hands pause. "What's that supposed to mean?"

"It means that unless I want to gun for police commissioner or union rep, I'm not going to make them better." That comes quick and defensive, because he had it at the ready and, well. He's defensive. The apology comes less quickly and markedly less smoothly: "I meant they're a mess. I meant. They don't know how to prioritize things. I didn't mean no one--cared.

"That's not what I meant."

“But it’s the truth. It’s how this place is,” stated like he’s continuing Bruce’s sentence. He doesn’t need an apology from the truth, but he can’t help the frustration from bleeding into his voice, as if it’s Bruce’s fault.

His gaze falls back to the duvet in hand to yank the delicate zipper shut with a forceful zzrrpp.

“You don’t wanna do anything about it. But I’m gonna.”

Dick is so frank and unreserved that it feels volatile. For a moment, Bruce almost forgets his cool. He reaches out to grab hold of Dick's arm, halfway up to his elbow. He opens his mouth and very nearly explains: it is the truth of how this place is, and even Bruce can't escape it; no one looked close enough to see that someone was pulling the strings; maybe worse, someone did see it and didn't feel the need to do anything about it.

After that, comes the explanation that he does want to do something. That he is doing something.

It doesn't come out. His fingers flex at the inside of Dick's arm, lips sew slowly back together. "...Maybe you will. Maybe...maybe we can talk about it while you're here.

"After dinner." Maybe full stomachs will ground their mutual tempers.

He stops, stiffening, shocked that Bruce would reach out to grab him, eyes wide as he stares at the pale, strong grip on his forearm. The pause between them is so still that Dick doesn't even breathe.

The quiet feels filled with unsaid words. And has Bruce ever placed a hand on him before? Dick's eyes lift to his mouth as the words are hemmed back. What is it that Bruce wants to say? The words that come don't seem to be it, even if the promise of wanting to talk starts to prickle hopefully in his chest.

What is it? What did he say that seemed to work? Dick's inhale is slow and steady, as he drops the duvet to squeeze Bruce's grip on his arm.

"After dinner."

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[ He tries to explain (you--you--) but the pain sets him so hot inside that the words sizzle to air on his tongue. His breath rushes hot between his teeth, hollow of his palm radiating against Dick's shoulder where Bruce white-knuckles into his shirt. For a few seconds to level and recover, Bruce tucks into the fold of their shoulders. Like a swan.

[ First to unfold is his fist, splaying wide just aside Dick's shoulder. Then his head lifting to find Dick's eyes. His jaw unbraiding with great effort. ] You.

You can have me.

[ he hushes Bruce, but Bruce gives them only a few seconds of merciful stillness. he counts three shaking breaths as he cradles Bruce's folded, burning mass against his own. it's almost easier not to hear what Bruce has to say. not to see those eyes, searching out his as his heart lurches in his chest.

he takes a slow breath, brow pinching. ]

Bruce... [ there's an ache in his voice, a plea. ] You don't know what you're saying to me right now. Just...sleep for a while. [ he holds those stormy eyes before casting his gaze down to press close, to let his cheek brush against Bruce's temple. ] Please? For me?

Just stay with me. [ He pulls his head up. It looks like a wince or a wobble, but it's purposeful. He has to get Dick's eye back, a defiant look to prove that he knows what he's doing, he knows what he's saying--but he won't say it again. Not now. ] Till I fall asleep. Stay here.

[ his eyes give his hesitation away, a longing that's so scared, that refuses to be held at bay as Bruce holds his gaze like he means any of it. finally, when Dick speaks, it's a regretful admittance. ]

You're why I'm here.

[ that's more than he should give either of them. ]

Come on. Ready? Three, two--

[ it's sure to hurt. Bruce's body grinds as it moves, its muscles seized by the swelling, its joints grating as Dick lifts as gently as he can. by contrast, he's smooth, steady, solid, and so caring when he tucks Bruce in. he folds into the chair at the bedside again and rests a hand on Bruce's forearm over the sheet, rests his gaze heavy on Bruce's face. ]

Rest. Close your eyes and I'll be right here when you wake up. I promise.

[ Bruce nods, crisp and sure. Roger that. The assurance allows him to crumble back in--so much brittle weight for Dick to stack back into place.

[ This frustrates him to no end; how fragile his body is, but how stubbornly it resists manipulation by anyone trying to keep it together. Himself, Dick, Alfred--even Dr. Thompkins when she arrives in six hours, fresh off a shift, to stitch his knee together. She calls on Dick and Alfred to support. Bruce assumes that they only manage because he's anaesthetized, that the drugs put his body to sleep as much as his mind. That's frustrating too, but at least he understands the necessity.

[ And, admittedly, it's nice to wake up in the comfort of his bed, even bandaged and sluggish with sedation. Grievous injuries like this aren't common, but they've happened enough times that he knows the procedure. He's allowed to stay here, curtains drawn, while Alfred and Leslie do the math and set schedules. In turn, he has to eat whatever's brought to him, take whatever he's prescribed, and continue resting even past his enjoyment. The first twelve hours are usually luxurious, the remainder hellish. But he knows the procedure.

[ As he relaxes into the structure, though, a thought hits him like a hypnic jerk. He murmurs it outloud: ] Dick.

[ Right here, he promised. Bruce pushes up on his elbows, pain eased by pills and packaging around his ribs so that he can push nearly to a seat to look. ]

[ It doesn't take much to figure out where it all went wrong. Between the footage from the suit, the utility plans of the tunnels, and the nearby CCTVs, Dick has it all laid out in less than an hour. Then, he spends hours sitting by the cot, listening to the even rhythm of Bruce's breathing, waiting for Leslie to arrive.

Afterwards, it makes him think in what-ifs, and should-haves as he sinks into an armchair pulled close to the edge of Bruce's bed. The position he assumes is getting too familiar for comfort, and once again, he finds himself taking in Bruce's slumbering face. All that sharpness hidden away, Bruce looks so young like this.

Like that, Dick dozes off too, finally allowing himself to surrender, knowing now that Bruce will be okay. Leaned forward, with his head pillowed on his arms at the edge of Bruce's bed, the tug of sheets below stirs him into motion. He blinks awake, shuffles forward in his seat to immediately sets a hand on Bruce's shoulder. ]

Hey, sleepyhead. [ His voice is close and quiet, husky with sleep as he tries to ease Bruce back down. His smile is tired. ] It's okay. Slow down. What are you looking for?

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I didn't know that's how you were acting. [ If Dick wants him to back off, he's going to have to apply a lot more pressure. Bruce butts back where their foreheads touch, brushes their noses, eyes open and low. He watches Dick's collarbone for tension, watches his own hand sweeping down his throat and thumbing over the hollow there. ] How do you want it different?

[ He doesn’t want Bruce to back off, but he needs the pause, needs a beat as confusion knits briefly in his brow and conflicts with the heat licking up his spine already.

His eyes open, his hand curls around Bruce’s shoulder, his nape. ]

I don’t want it to disappear again.

[ He takes the look and the touch as an invitation, nodding in to pull another kiss off Dick's mouth, just one. ] When did it start to disappear?

[ There's a sound in the back of his throat, one Bruce pulls with the kiss. His eyes drop to Bruce's mouth, then up to stormy eyes again. ]

Don't know. [ Perhaps it was never there to begin with. ]

Bruce. What does this mean to you? Like, [ A hard swallow, his fingers tangling in dark hair to keep Bruce in place. ] Are you just helping me out right now?

...I'm helping you right now. [ Ground out after staring back at Dick too long. His eyes narrow minutely, mouth arranges around his thoughts in little mechanical ticks. ] But not just now. I'll always help you.

I would do anything you wanted. [ Given time to understand it, sit with it, process it. The finer points escape him right now, but there must be something to say for his boldness in not doing calculations before talking. ] Isn't that obvious?

[ a breath quivers out and he holds those unrelenting eyes. it turns out, he's been trying so hard to get what Bruce doesn't know how to give, too busy pushing away when he doesn't get it that he's missed how obvious it really is. Bruce would do anything for him. And what else could he ask for besides that?

Maybe he's falling for it, but his eyes warm, the chocolate melting as he presses another kiss to Bruce's mouth. ]

No. [ quietly said, patience winding through the tone of dry humour. ]

You know... [ His legs part as he slides his hand down the shape of Bruce's side to draw him in. ] You can count on me to help you, too. If you ever want that.

[ The scent of soap and antiseptic pulls Dick in to taste Bruce's jaw, until he says quietly near the shell of his ear, ] If you...ever want me. Like I want you.

[ The tricky thing is, Bruce can barely identify want. He feels it like a bolt feels rust milling between its threads. Years of disuse add discomfort and grit to the familiar, natural curve of it. He wanted once, half his life ago, but that boy disappeared. He wanted again, painfully, before Selina slipped out of his hands, leaving a little give for the next person to put pliers to his heart. He counted on having at least another decade to prepare.

[ And then there was Dick. So soon. And Bruce still isn't sure what to call it when he can see Dick's pulse chirruping in his throat and it hurts from the back of his tongue to the bottom of his gut--but sure. Maybe that's the name for it. That might be it, with the way it soothes everywhere that they connect. Bruce follows him in, heavy in the arrow of his hips, weight for both their benefit. ]

I want you. [ He says plainly. His palm wraps Dick's throat, gently and firmly pushes him back against the bed where Bruce and look at him. ] Is that clear enough? I want you.

Yeah. [ Even on a good day, Dick doesn’t know what to do with the look in Bruce’s eyes, with how revealing they can be. He doesn’t look away, only drinks in the feeling of such plain words, such a plain look. ]

Good. [It’s purred as a hand drags all the way up Bruce’s spine until there’s no more space between them, until Dick can press into a desperate, open-mouthed kiss. ]

So good.

[ His other hand guides Bruce’s grasp on his throat until it’s nestled between his parted thighs. ]

You’re the only one…who makes it quiet like this. 'S always been you.

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days in the circus

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if you are still here for it, no worries if not!!!